Greetings so its about a month after my bday and things are going okay...
This is a post about my sex life which baby has been BANGING!  Literally.....Guess who came back?
Yup the Latino...  He messaged me about a week after with hey whats up I am horny you?
So over he comes was not discussed and we fuck our brains out, he is currently going on about getting a Pill.  Could be Ecstasy or Special K or blah blah blah...  so he can reach a new height in his sexuality.  Now let me tell you I have turned this boy out, he is having Orgasm's constantly when we fuck over and over again, I know what I am doing to make him do it and take great pride in it.
He of course says its the pot or the poppers whatever douche bag give me some credit.
So that night that he returned when he said he never would we are laying in bed and he keeps saying that it is the Pot, I get pissed give him a punch in the arm it was playful and say hey you could say something about me.  He got pissed off and said "don't ever hit me again"  loud and meaningful.  I am really not sure if I said sorry but I really did not care as he was pissing me off by never giving me an ounce of credit.  So when we were at the door saying goodbye I felt he probably would not come back.  So I let him know how I did not appreciate his giving me notice like that a week ago and how it was my Bday and he totally ruined it for me.  He said he was sorry and said he was impulsive.
He left and was on a roll after that about me fucking him like every 2-3 days.
There was to much going on in my personal life and I was not about to tell him so I kept feigning dinner plans..  Finally things cleared up and for some reason the Gods aligned my sex fortune and it has been non-stop.
So this Asian kid I have fucked with for a while but have not seen since before Thanksgiving had reached out to me when I was in Ireland and was to busy and he was to busy but I was trolling my text and reached out to him and he came over on Wednesday  Night, this kid is young like maybe 23yrs old in Grad School and is very passionate but maybe a bit selfish but its fine.  I can feel that he is attracted to me for some reason
In he comes and we suck face at the door, so he is Chinese but he is tall like 5'10 and rail thin and smooth as could be except for his legs which are really quite hairy.  He loves to kiss and sucks my cock but mostly he loves his ass eaten out which I do and he really enjoys it, usually his Ass smells like a woodsy wash and is lovely and he really likes it.  Make him suck me some more and tell him to wrap me and put it in his Ass.. He does just what he is told and I am of course Daddy.  He likes to be gently manhandled but can take a good fuck and talks a bit of smack and me talking right back at him.  He is cute and very nice we kiss and he exits
Followed by Latino boy, now I call him this because he is very into when we are fucking him saying that he is offering up his Latino ass to my white Irish Cock  hehehe...  I kinda like it.
This guy is so damn hot he is practically want I want in a sex partner.
Loves to get fucked and raw... is vocal about telling me how he owns my cock and I own his ass and we just go at it like animals in bed, yet at the same time it is all so kinda loving, weird.
Next up is this dude I met online and kinda felt sorry for a bit.  I actually helped him shut down his Manhunt account.  Anyway he is submissive and wants to serve he comes over a bit taller then I like and is going bald and is older like maybe 50.  He has this long song and dance about his ex dying from a drug overdose and saddled him with debt from a bus touring company the dude owned and it went on and on we were sitting in the living room and I could feel myself zoning out..  Finally I made the move and we were kissing for like hours..  He sucked at sucking and I had no desire to fuck him at all, his body though was decent and he def worked out some.  His cock sucking abilities were nill and at one point he said his mouth was getting tired and when was I going to cum?  AS IF mother fucker!  So I jerked off and gave him the heave ho.  Followed by Latino that Wed night where we went at it for close to 2 hours and he left saying it  was the best he has ever had!
Of course I have not really heard from him since and that was 5 days ago.
I had texted Eric and said we should get together and that was about 2 weeks ago, he likes taking a roofie prior to us fucking and said he needed to go get one.  Week had past and I texted him again with a "hey"  he totally spaced it and said will contact the guy right away that was on Wed and Friday evening he texts me "got it"  I text him back to say great and we went back and forth a bit.
My dick is actually getting hard texted this dude.
Finally he says "you horny"?  Like Angels singing my heart lept  FUCK YA
So I write back and say yes and we work it out slowly but it works,
He arrives probably a little after 9:30 looking so fucking hot this kid is.
Bearded, trimmed with his hair buzzed all around except for some fluff on the top of his head wearing a baseball cap, sweats and a thermal shirt... I go weak when I see this guy he is amazing looking.  He is like 5'10 prob 165 28 yrs old mod hairy and blondish hair.  Straight off the farm ugh.
So we are in kitchen and as usual he is yammering away about the pill and I am pouring him a shot   The pill he has needs to be placed in water so you open the capsule and pour it in, the color was odd like a muddy brown and he drank it all down eagerly.
We go to the living room spark up a bowl of weed talk a bit and he turns to me and says "I can feel it" The pot I confirm and he says no the pill.  So I get up and get the poppers and give him a hit and tell him to take out my cock.  He complies and begins to suck me off, I gesture for him to get up and go to the bedroom he goes in strips and gets on the bed with his legs tucked underneath him laying face down on the edge of the bed.  I assault his ass with my fingers opening him up and he just takes it I alternate back to him taking my cock but it is obvious that all he wants is his ass opened up by me.
So I do it and work his hole with a great deal of lube and my fingers.  You can tell that this roofie he took was really kicking in, you see this pill just makes him sleep and I mean coma sleep.  So there he is laying flat out on the bed stomach down and comaville.  He has taken these so many times before with me but never did I do what I did that night with him.
I fucked him for a solid hour raw and wrapped and he was comatose I was relentless with his ass, I really never knew when doing it if he was there or not but  I would be talking into his ear telling him how I was fucking his hole and would just continue to do so till I wanted every once in a while he would get into and start working his ass with me.  At one point I guess cause this shit kinda paralyzes you his face was smack down into the pillow and I am not sure if I was paying attention but I pulled his head up and he was gasping for air and kinda gurgling with lots of saliva.  I situated his head and continued fucking this boys ass hard and deep really hard and really deep and he was just taking it like a fucking coma induced champ lol.
He finally wakes up and it takes him a while to get to be able to speak and move but you can tell that he does not want me near him at all and is acting weird.. I started to freak out thinking he is going to say I basically raped him, which I did.
Finally when he was able to speak he said "why were you trying to choke me"  and he was upset and said that it happened and that I used the pillow and twisted his head around completely like 180.
So now wait before someone puts in jail for attempted murder.  This pill makes you hallucinate and gets you fucked up.  So I kinda knew that this was one of those stories he tells after he comes out of it. Yet this time he was certain that I tried to suffocate him. I realize of course about the point where his head was buried in the pillow and when I moved it he took this huge gulp of air... He probably was beginning the process of suffocation  and luckily I caught it in time and he got to breath.
It put a damper on things cause after I can get him to cuddle with me but this time he was convinced of it.   I worked him down with time and common sense but it was still in the air.  Yet neither of us had cum so he wanted that and went down on my dirty dick  fuck ya.  So he is sucking my cock and I go to start playing with his hole and he wants to be fucked.  I get up and walk behind his ass on the edge of the bed and just push my dick into his hole raw and he takes it.  I begin to fuck him and within a few moments he shoots.  I jump back on the bed and jerk off I cum and he hovers over my cock, followed by him going in and licking it after it was in his hole raw.  Damn this guy is so over the top hot.  He kept talking about the condom but he knew damn well I was in him raw and he wants it.  Oh when I went to cum I told him to kiss me and he did which I know he does not like especially after he has already cum
Worn the fuck out baby doll
Sunday rolls around and I want some even though I was feeling like shit.
I post an Ad on CL and lo and behold this hot muscled dude who I have not seen since last September messages me and he comes over and we fuck for over an hour he is so hot and loves to kiss and submissive  yum mee....
So thats about it.... my dick is numb and I am satiated to say the least
Talk sooon blogger

My Bday and me

Well here it is a whole year has passed and not much has changed in my life.... I am a bit bummed today  as the kid that I have been fucking dumped me for the 4th time.
I am not sure why but he has some issues as far as identifying who he is but suffice to say it has really put a damper on my day.  A good deal has happened since I last checked in here.
Took a trip to Ireland probably one of my best yet, this would most likely mark my 27th time back to Ireland I have been going since 1970 and while it has its up and downs I truly treasure being with my family and all that they bring to me.  We rented a beautiful house that was built about 6 years ago and was truly a gracious if not grand home.  We arrived on a Friday to some nice weather beating what I had left behind, this Winter has truly been harsh not so much the snow but the cold temps.
Rented two cars as there was 7 of us traveling on this trip.  Did the usual drive down and were met with cousins after cousins who all welcomed us so warmly.  To arrive at the most lovely house I have ever rented, equipped to the 9s and the comfort was beyond belief.
The nice part I felt about this trip was that I would make a day trip plan and all would follow and it would just be a great day followed by another great day... Sure I had my struggles in the beginning as it is not easy going from being alone to being surrounded by a gang... I pulled in my horns and went on to really have fun... We had a celebration for an Aunt and we hosted 55 people at the house for a Cousins gathering on both my Mom and Dads side.
Each day was great and I am greatful for all of those people in my life and how gracious and welcoming each and everyone of them were to me.
Work has changed as I am now back in my office which is something I really needed to do.  I felt lost and isolated and with no direction being in constant sales and spent most of my time holed up in my apartment online scouting.  Now I am back to my Manager role and while it has its ups and downs it is my place and my office.
I bought a new lap top got a new Iphone and a few trinkets for the house to make me feel good.
I got a review a work which was "exceeds expectations"  How on God's green earth did I get that seriously!!!  I did NOTHING last year and I mean NOTHING and got the highest grade you could get.  Amazing my boss truly amazing.
Either way it will give my income a boost and has helped to make me feel somewhat better about myself.
I am bored so bored with what I am doing it is the same routine day in and day out.
Wake go online look at porn go to work answer the phone fill some orders aggravate people around me go home and drink till I fall asleep, I guess I am not alone in doing these things but still I have to stop it is not good for me.
So here it is he day before my Birthday my phone does not ring and I have no one to be with.
Yesterday Sunday was a good day, I awoke got online showered went back online and was damn horny and wanted to get laid... That Fbuddy that I have been on and off with since around 5 months texted me asking if I wanted to get together  "perfection"
He arrived at around 5 and stayed till after 7 where we fucked and fucked and fucked it was so damn good and all bare and the boy is just so hot to fuck......He has these Anal orgasm's when I go to fuck him, I guess I am that good or he is in total sensory overload.  Either ways they are wild, he goes and starts screaming that he is cumming and no cum comes out his face gets all contorted and he tenses up and gets confused and intense like painfully intense holding on to me till it hurts.
This last time we are fucking and he needs me to say that he is the best I have ever had... I hate that so much but this time I told him he was, dont like doing that at all...
Our normal routine and I should mention this as this is why he dumped me for the 4th time is he comes over sits down I pour him a Cocktail and I have already left on the Cocktail table in the living room a fully loaded bowl of Pot and a lighter I bring him the drink an he drinks it fast and takes several large hits off the Pipe.  Now realize that it was he who requests this, I dont like to share so it was not mine.  See one of the first times he came over he said, "I smell smoke"  Granted I do smoke but do not want him to know (Cigs) but he insisted so I blamed it on the Landlady.  He bought it but it tested the water on weed and low and behold he wanted some, so I accommodated and it became the norm each and every time he came over.  Which is fine as it relaxed him and turned him into this powerhouse bottom boy.
In fact he came over the day of my Xmas eve party that I was having that night we smoked a bit fucked our brains out and when my first guest arrived they commented how the place reeked of it.
I really dont like smoking in the house as it reeks and I have an old lady who lives upstairs who owns the place and I would rather not subject her to that.  It is not nice.  Not to mention it could get me evicted.  That being said yesterday was just the same as always but perhaps I pushed it to far and I think I may have.  See he gets the guilts about sex and as is the usual I fill up on water so as not to cum to fast and maintain an amazing hard on.  So I knew I was not going to cum anytime soon and wanted to make this about him.  I sucked him off a good long time till the point he pulled out of my mouth and went to be what he is a true bottom
So I am fucking him for over an hour and he is having these amazing anal orgasm's and finally I say to him I am going to keep on fucking you till you cum... He never cums when I am inside him this time I wanted to treat him to that as he did not cum last time we were together.  So I fucked the cum out of him, took awhile but he shot and right after it he pulled out and left.  He said it was bothering him that he felt like it had to pee, I knew it was the guilt and I was fine with it, I shot when he went into the shower.  I was so played out after he left I ordered Chinese and slept.
The next day today, I was on cloud nine in a great mood and felt wonderful, rare for me.
At about 2 in the afternoon I text him to see how he is feeling... he was fine and said it was the best night ever.
Followed by how he is deleting my number and do not ever expect to hear from him again. PUNCH!
Fuck him and his constant immaturity..  I replied back with WTF and why??/
His reply was the Pot made him lazy and that is not who he is   REALLY???
I left it at that I am sure he will be back at sometime but still I was really liking it so much, it as so nice to see a text from him and to know I was wanted by someone... How sad is that for me, for I really was just a cock to him someone to get him off but he wanted me and he could have anyone but he selected me... UGH!
Either way it hurts to be left like that I know it is something more but I really dont want to know to be honest dont want it to be hurtful.  I now have to go out and look for something which I hate!
I saw the other guy Eric the day after I returned from Ireland and that did not go so well either.
He texted me while I was away and let him know that I will be home in 10 days so I text him no response... day later he texts me back and invites me to his place.  Now this is a first as he was living with someone but now he left her and has taken up with another chick.  Yet he has his own place a Garden apartment and he has it done very Scandanavian, white couches sleek entertainment center etc.  So it is early like 10am and I arrive and he has been drinking alot so he takes his roofie I whip out the poppers and it just goes down hill he is too high to out of it to tired and I cum quickly which I always do with him and he cannot comfortably get my cock into him without it being painful.
Sadly I left he fell asleep and I got the ickly feeling that it would be our last as he always says that.
So hear I sit alone and approaching another birthday with nothing to show for it.
I hope that his year brings me some happiness and the ability to get out there and meet new people as I am living this existence which only brings bad things and thoughts to mind.
I will be here now for a year next week and I am okay with it as I cannot seem to save any money at all but am hoping this June with the end of my Car payment I will be able to buckle down.
Not in a good place today blogger but wanted to say hi...

Life and times of a middle aged white guy LOL!  Just going to try to review some of my previous hook ups and get them down so as not to forget.  Met this one Spanish guy, had this great body on him pure muscle nicely sculpted upper and lower body with a few tats thrown in and was bi married with kids and was probably around 30 something.
Met him on CL and he comes over he works as a detailer for a local Car dealership.  It is the summertime and he comes over straight after work to meet with me.  He shows up and the face is okay but the body is amazing and he is a generally nice guy.  I go to reach for him and he pulls back and I am like WTF...  He explains that he is dirty and would need to shower.  I hate that, hate when folks have to shower in my house use the towels etc... OCD kicks in and I try to contain it as I want this boy, so he goes and he takes a shower and is in there for at least 10 mins, while I pace outside wondering why is it taking so long, he has shit and stunk up the place used my Mouth Wash towels and made a mess with his clothes just laying on the bathroom floor OCD refrain yourself.
So we head into the bedroom and he sees the mirror I have standing on the floor and plants himself infront and has me lean into the bed with both feet on the ground and it commences.  This boy was all about the suck, wanted nothing more then to swallow my cock down whole and slobber the hell out of it, fortunately he laid down the towel he used to dry himself with and drooled and slobbered my rigid dick till forever, see while he was good he was not amazing so I was not cumming and really wanted to hold back as I really loved the amount of attention he was slobbering all over my cock.  He was just so into sucking dick and made a point of showing me how much he loved my cock or any cock for that matter.  I finally after about 30+ minutes of him sucking jerked my load onto his face which was as he had requested, another shower and he leaves.  At this point we had exchanged cell numbers and he was texting me like every other day and we were going at it like rabbits.  Come to find out he does not get fucked but did like kissing, he would at times get very aggressive and make me suck on his dick which I am really not a fan of but will do as it is only fair and want to show I am a team player and not a selfish top.  He also really loved eating my ass I mean really deep and he would get so into it.  He asked me at one point and I almost puked from the taste on his ass, it was so fucking gross that I near gagged and when I told him so he said "gee I showered"  that boy was eating some serious crap as it was the worst ever.  This of course kinda turned me off along with afterwards we would be in the kitchen while he would get dressed which took so damn long.  While there he would pick his nose and throw it in the garbage can, spit, pick his nose again it was so fucking gross to watch and he did not seem to notice in the least.  While I do not consider myself "a lady" it was beyond normal behavior between two dudes fucking around.  So I knew his exit was coming soon.  He texted me one day and I was just not into it and made up some excuse only to find myself later posting on CL...lo and behold he found the post and made a stink about it. I explained that we are not dating and he wanted nothing to do with me which was just fine with me thank you!   He did text me about a month later but I was still no longer interested and moved on.  
Met this one guy from MH black dude lived a few towns away but he was young like 22yrs of age and not thug black but educated and rather handsome with an amazing body and ass that you could bounce quarters on.   He could kiss like a God and his lips were like pillows and he loved it, we had very passionate and intimate sex all raw and he loved cleaning my dick after it was inside of him and I could shoot either in his ass or his mouth, I loved doing it in his Mouth after I had been fucking him.
I could cum 2-3 x with this boy and he took it each and every time, sex with him was really hot and he would come over around once a week usually on a Sunday and spend the better part of 3 hours with me... It was really nice to be honest and he was so damn good looking and that ass and lips... As with most they fade away, we had exchanged cells and last I reached out to him with no response  ugh... I wonder why sometimes but don't really want to know the answer.  Of course there are the one timers who you never see again, they come in do the deed and vanish which is fine I guess I am not there type or they are not mine.  I have a type for sure, darker then me with smooth to hairless bodies my height or smaller and insatiable bottoms.  This is the type I go after and the kind that seems to like me as they keep coming back for more.   At times I would get bored and trolling about on CL I would find someone that would peak my interest and create a personae that fits to what they are seeking.  This one married dude he was seeking a woman who would use a strap on and fuck him and degrade him.  I had this guy going for 2 weeks straight of constant emails and breaking down his barriers to the point where I posed as a good looking Mother of one married living with hubby had him sending me videos of him impaling himself on 14 inches by 8 around black dildos that he would plant on a stool and sit on it was vile and wacked, so was I.
So I set up that I the housewife would meet at some location with a hotel and we would meet in the parking lot and he was going to wear exactly what I wanted him to, get a joint bring all his paraphanalia with him and wait for me.  We had a glitch in the email system and I barked at him that he waited so long to reply back to me and yadda yadda yadda and cut off communication with him.  Yet he emailed back and said he was still going even though I was not replying back to anything he wrote.  I even had this guy sucking cock for me from some dude he would pick up on CL a first for him.. Men are so desperate and well so am I.  I had to be in the area that morning anyway and drove by and sure enough there he was in his BMW 8 series a rather good looking shorter italian dude dressed very nicely.  So I of course pull into the lot and proceed to circle by him pretending to talk on the phone he was looking for a cute female in a Benz SUV not me so he was not paying attention.  I get out walk right by him and head into hotel hang for a min piss and walk back out and right by his Car again  Finally he gets out with a bag and goes and he checks into the room  Had I the balls I would have gone in but it would have been sticky although I am sure I could come up with a story but again to much of a sticky situation, i took off and find out later he was emailing me sending pics of him waiting, inside the room dressed and undressed and then drove to the town where I told him I lived.  That poor guy emailed me for 3 months after that.  I felt badly but at the same time this guy gave me his cell number email addy, first and last name and I found out everything I could about him.  Married with kids he was nuts but he was cute had money and am sure he will hopefully find someone as this guy would get up at 4am and proceed to fuck himself senseless with those dildos as the wife and kids slept.
I like to go after those ads the ones with the hot scenario and have some fun at there expense not nice but it was entertaining to say the least, I believe my goal was to get these supposed straight dudes to venture to the forbidden side.
After sometime I found myself on this hunt for ass and mouth it was time consuming and taking over me like an addiction I did not know how to stop I realize that most of it was boredom and I really was not doing anything and just wanted to entertain myself and also to see who was really interested in me.  It became tedious and aggravating and I guess I started to look like the town whore always on websites and seeking something, either companionship or a roll in the hay..  One Saturday afternoon I met this guy, very handsome young lil taller then me but good looking, he lived locally and was very eager to meet.  Only thing was that he did not drive so I had to go and get him.  It was about 5 mins from me and I quickly picked him up and bought him back to my place.  This kid was cute and young I was happy and we chatted and I was cordial and hosty... I offered him some wine to help break the mood and he accepted and the clothes came off and he was talking some odd shit like he was going to PA to some office or some shit and he would be leaving next week and would be gone for several months and none of it made any sense at all to me.  One glass led to two led to three led to 4 led to another bottle and my cock deep inside of him raw, come to find out he was a drunk and probably ever more.  I fed him to sober him up and attempted to bring him back to bed and kept wanting more booze and I knew right then this guy had to go but he had his heart set on staying with me.  See he had this roomate who he was clearly in love with and the roomie was clearly sending him to rehab and well the story just gets convaluted and lost and down right stupid.  So I yelled at him and told him to get dressed and was driving him home, he knew that he was trashed and by going home would let his roomie see how drunk he was and I guess this was not a good thing.
I did not care as this was not my problem.  I was responsible dropped him off and wished him luck..  Odd folks all around and so glad I got to meet that wacko.
One day during the week I got to talking to this guy I believe from CL he sends me some pic and looks so damn hot was almost unbeleivable but he was determined to meet me later in the day and was wanting to play with me.  I really want not believing this but went along to see where it would go.  Lo and behold he shows up.  Dear God this was a MAN!
He is like over 6ft, Brazilian with a lean hard tight body wearing a dress shirt and pants I mean to tell you this guy was built, I figured when he got a look at me he would want to leave but he did not and wanted to play... So I am not to clear but I think he went to change in the bathroom either shower or something but out he comes and I am in the bedroom he was an Adonis, smooth and sculpted and sporting a 10 inch cock with a Prince Albert I was dumb struck but he was so damn good and wanted me at one point to fuck him raw but I was panicked as I could not get a hold on this guy.  He claimed he was bi and married with kids in their teens and I kept saying "why me"
but he wanted me and he got me I would not fuck him raw but let him swallow me down and again he was so out my league I could not act right, he left and of course never to hear from again.   The Chinese boy.... met him on CL and he came over all of 22 probably 5'9 and weighed maybe 120 smooth and boyish with glasses he was adorable and wanted to the whore Daddy thing and some being a bad boy and needed to be be punished which I was game on...... he wiggles in my bed and he is squirming and I am trying to align him in the bed and he is still squiriming and it was at that point that I realized haha this boy wanted to be punished and I did, I slapped his cock his balls and his ass twisted his nips and ate out his sweet tasting hole, he used some type of body wash that had this wood scent to it and he was delicious, always wrapped but always calling me Daddy... he was a regular and kept it up for several months probably 5 which is a long time in this type of setting.   Hope and am almost sure I will see that boy again.
Attempting to rattle this drug and booze adled brain of mine..... I am sure more will come.   Lately I have not been feeling well got this stomach virus that has knocked me out and feeling rather unmotivated, yet last night I did have the Spainard over and screwed his brains out, he is not really that nice and needs to be made to feel that he is doing me some sort of a favor which is rather annoying and childish to be honest.
He is playing me and it is obvious to make himself feel better about what ever shit he has going on his head.  That first night rings heavy in his head as he told me he had an out of body experience with me and it has never happened to him with anyone and it was so intense for him and unforgettable.  The other day he texted me reminding me of it and explaining how he felt but the entire time he would not give me ONE ounce of credit it was beginnning to annoy the shit out of me so I went at him and let him know that it was ME who did that to him and no one else and that it would never have happened had it not been for me and that he needed to step it up and appreciate what I was and what I had given him and stop this crap.  He relented and thanked me and said it was not easy for him sometimes, please his Mother raised a good kid with manners he did not have to be this way.  I know that this is what will tear this thing apart.  This whole fucking power shit thing which I am not a fan of.  Either way I was feeling much better last night and we had iffy plans for him to come over at his convenience which meant late.  I was going to get him and persued it and he seems to like that but there is always the odd chance that he will back out and make it hurtful
So I text him to say "So" and he replies that he is running later and would of course have to come here to shower and blah blah blah... I agree and allow and he shows up early.  He does his bit and is reserved I make him his usual and take out a bowl and light up and he still has his jacket on and is crammed into the corner of the couch.
I start to stroke him on his leg towards his crotch and he stays a bit takes a few hits and announces that he is going to shower.  I quickly duck out to smoke a butt as he had shown up to early for me to have one after I had showered.  I had already decided that we were going to fuck on the Couch as that was what he wanted and after he gets out of the shower he heads toward the bedroom, I go in and say "hey thought we would do it on the couch" he explains that he is horny and to leave the door open and the lights off, odd....  I climb on and we go at it, now one of my requests was that he eat my ass, ding ding he goes for it, another was for him to swallow my cum ding ding he does it.  I am clearly feeling good but at the sametime confused.  I also notice that on his pec is the feeling of scratch marks but I cannot see as the lights are out.  We finish up and he goes to shower and says he will be right back.  By the time he does he is dressed and ready to leave.  I am thinking that this boy got it the night before and somebody scratched him up and he did not want me to see.  You see his has this thing that I own his ass and he owns my dick and we are not tobe having sex with anyone but each other.  His rule not mine.   Yet today I am wiped and not movtivated he texted a few times seeking compliments which I gave.
I have the deep throater emailing me begging when I would set it up but will take sometime to get it going on my end.  He wants it that I don't tell him and that deep throater just shows up.  Have to coordinate that one.
More to come

I am back

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Sorry for the long overdue in posting, as I had some missions I needed to accomplish which I have but which also scare the shit out of me financially.  Since my last posting I have gotten a new position at work, starting to see a Therapist and got myself a new place!
The change for my position at work was a long time in the making about 2 months, I do not really see much difference as I am not really changing but my boss wants it to happen..  I have to figure it out but I will and hopefully it will be a good thing.  The freedom it will give me will scare me and will also allow me to be my own boss so to speak but I need to produce...  I am fairly certain it will work out as I like to think I am good at it, although I wonder.
I found a therapist and  he seems decent enough have only done one visit so far and it was not focused on the king and the fights more about moving on and getting out and meeting new people.  That will be hard as I am an introvert and prefer staying home.  That being said he gave me a number of places to go to meet singles who are also professionals.. I guess that is what I am now "single and professional"
I have now been 21 days out of the house and away from him and feel pretty good, I fight with him in my head and it is nasty and verbal along with some physical but I am working through it and at times I do not even think of him.  I am saddened by the lack of communication from our or his friends minus one or two, yet these are the breaks and I will have to begin to go out and meet new people so I do not become house bound which is something I know will happen to me shortly.  I am doing it now but using the right reasons, to save money.  I did pretty good on the money side not great but good.
I reduced my debt to next to nothing, I dipped into accounts and luckily received a nice bonus check so I felt comfortable to be able to venture out and find a place to live.   I had found this one place that looked good from the outside and had a nice deck decent insides and the rent was cheap.  I went to go look and there was a reason it was so cheap.  The place was a stye, filthy, cramped and dated and not to mention no care taken of the outside.  I do have standards and know what I would be happy with.  This was not one of them!  I happened to drive down the hill and went in and visited with a Realtor, nice group and a good Woman I met and she took me out on the internet and we found a few and she booked a date for us to go see them.  They were both in the same town and both were two families which my family felt I would be better suited for.  I was leaning towards a complex like tower with all the amenities and everything included.  It was stretching my budget tight but again my standards were telling me not to move into a dump as I would be miserable.  So the first place we go to see was horrible, it smelled and it was cramped and the bathroom was covered in mold.  Made a fast exit and headed to the next place.  You could tell when you walked up to it that it was well kept from the outside and it was big.  Walk in and the place is immaculate, gleaming hardwood floors fresh paint on the walls and great amounts of character.  I was impressed especially since the other places were so bad.  It has 6 rooms total, 2 bedrooms, living room, dining room and a sunroom along with an eat in kitchen and a pantry.  There is a small deck on the back and parking is off street, the rent was decent and I was sold.  A nice older Italian woman owns it and lives upstairs, she seemed okay if not a bit rough but I know how to sweeten these old ladies it will take sometime but she will happy I am living in her house trust me.
Move in date is set for the 1st of the Month and I have to buy EVERYTHING!  This will create a challenge for sure, my Mom has told me that she wants to pay for my furniture which is a blessing as I do not want to carry such debt going in.  The immediate needs are for a bed a dresser some night stands a few lamps a Couch a TV and a Washer and Dryer.  That alone comes to close to 2500 which is not so bad as I will have cash left over by the end of the month I think.  I have been drilling with these numbers and it all comes down to that I do not make enough money for the lifestyle I want to live.  I have closed a couple of good deals lately so my bonus check will be decent that will help to get me stuff I need and want.  The worst part will be going back to the house to gather all of my stuff up.  I will wait on that till I am moved in and head over to clean out and pack up the items which are mine.  Not a great deal of things a few tables and lamps and pictures that I bought and some stuff for outside but they are mine and he is not getting them.  We have not spoken at all, I did text him last week as I wanted some stuff from the house and fortunately he was not home and stealth like I was in and out in 5 mins.  He texted me this week as I had some mail which did not cross over to "change of address" and he wanted to know how to pay a bill.  I was short and sweet in my reply and I got my mail today along with signing the lease and handing over 2500 dollars to the realtor.  It would have been more but the landlady gave me a break which was kind of her.  I asked to make a date to go back and see the place and hopefully I can get a better idea of what the place will accommodate as for furniture.  I am still so nervous that I will not be accepted as my credit score took a hit this past month due to purchases that were not mine.  The following month will be better for the score and I was mad that this had happened as I try to maintain that number always.
When I got the call from the realtor on Friday that my offer was accepted I was so thrilled.
I was even more thrilled to find out that the boy I fuck was also coming over that night.
I made my calls out to my family to let them know the good news and they were thrilled for me.
It was then that I started to prep for his arrival, jumping into the shower as soon as he mentioned that he was 45mins out.  Dimmed the lights took a few hits off a joint and poured a glass of Wine.
Ding dong!!!  In he comes looking so cute and handsome and kind... I am crushing on this kid and should not be but how can you not.  We do the obligatory small chat I let him know that I got a place he does not want to talk about it as it brings him into close to me something he would prefer to avoid.
Prior to him coming he sent me a message that he had used something to clean himself out and he felt sore now.  I reassured him that we would do whatever he wanted to and he was still in!
So I asked him how he was feeling and he said it was still sore and I let him know that I had some cream and perhaps we should put some on him to relieve the discomfort on his hole.  This then presented him with the idea of taking a shower, I showed him wear it was and he went in to shower which gave me enough time to toke a few more hits off the joint that was out on the deck.  I was like a little kid so damn excited.   I am out in the kitchen out he walks in only a towel..  So fucking sexy and he sort of knows it and knew what it would do to me, I poured him some more vodka got the cream and he quickly went into the bedroom, he props himself up on all 4s on the bed so I can apply for him... WOOF!  I am not realizing that this is a total turn on for him and he has not even poppered up and you could hear him moaning as I began to apply the creme to his hole.  So I begin to do some heavy breathing and perhaps a bit of moaning and he is in solid and eager... I go back to it being medicinal and pull off as I know that this boy just wants his ass fucked and I am wanting more.
So I place the cream down much to his chagrin and grab the bottle of poppers that have all been placed on the night stand, the poppers the spray and a pair of underwear.  I did not have lube nor did I put out condoms... The visual is important as I am making a statement here, letting him know what is important.  Meanwhile I had already spent over 30 dollars on this shit all for him, well maybe not all but still.    So I grab the poppers and hand it over to him and he sniffs that first pop and it is pleasure pure simple pleasure.  I guide his head down to my cock and he pulls back ever so slightly and I push him down more and it slips right inside his mouth.... We are off and I go back to his ass letting him know that pain or no pain he is being fucked tonight.  He gets my drift and says should I take the pill?
The pill is another one of these popper like things that helps him to be able to handle that he is a slut cum loving bottom.  I do believe also it is a way to say to himself, I am not really gay cause the only way I can do this is to be totally fucked up on whatever poppers I can ingest..  I am not taking that honestly as I know this boy is going towards the gay side and this is my mission.
I tell him ya... take the pill and he quickly grabs it and settles back into my bed.  We begin the usual of huffing the spray huffing the liquid and drinking so we are both pretty toasted at this stage.  My finger has rubbed his hole enough but not go in as of yet as I know what this boy craves and that is my cock up his ass... Not just yet my pretty you have some work you need to do to get that.
I make him work sucking my cock and eating my ass, kissing me deep and verbally calling him every filthy name you can think of, he likes it and asks that I do it.  Now with the Spray the poppers and the pill along with half a glass of vodka and no food in him he begins to fall asleep ugh!!!!  What else should I do but fuck him while he sleeps.   So he is on his back snoring away and I lift his legs and push my cock in him and fuck him for a bit but not to much but my cock is in him raw and feels so sweet inside him.   I am getting pushy and aggressive and slightly annoyed so the punishing side of me comes out, I swing him around on the bed so his head is hanging off the side and start to push my rank dick into his open mouth...  he takes it gives a gag or two but I keep fucking his mouth right after I was in his hole.  I lean down to kiss him and the smell of rank ass is on his lips and mouth so hot.  I then squat over his face and make him lick my hole out... He does everything he is made to do.  We are cooking along and at one point I grab for the spray hit it with the cloth and huff on it a bit, he begins to straddle me and we are connected with his face against mine I am feeling the effects of the spray hitting my head and my cock is positioned right at his hole and I whisper into his ear... Put it in your hole, he reaches back and takes my cock and aims it for his hole and sits right back on it.  Hot damn this boy is one hungry bottom....  He rides that cock for a good bit and slides it out of him.
Now this is not something all that new but it does lead to more of me putting my raw dick up inside of him which is so hot.  I had let him know prior to us meeting that I had wanted to have him lay over the side of the couch so I can get real deep up inside of him... I had even laid out a towel by the couch so we would be ready to go.  We had also talked about how he wanted me to treat him like he was a Pussy a Cunt and to use those words on him when we were in the throw of things... I did use those words on him and you could see how it made him more eager to please and more wanting of my cock.   The use of the poppers and the spray along with the pill was making him sleep, each time he would do the spary he would fall asleep and begin to snore, this was getting constant and was pissing me off.  Not that you could be mad at this guy but I wanted the back and forth the nursing of my cock him doing for me!!  I became aggressive each time and would wake him up with either my ass in his mouth or my cock.  Finally we took out a condom and he wrapped my cock with it he also lubed up his ass more (not that he needed it) with that expensive cream.
Silly but it annoyed me as that shit is expensive and did not want him wasting it on his hole, which the first time I fucked it I used spit and he took it like a champ.   After he wrapped me up he started to get up and head out the bedroom door kinda grabbing me along the way... This boy was looped so he was swaying and he is like 5'10 170 so he is big to handle... I ask him where we going and he says slurred.... The Couch....
He heads for the living room but I was going with the great room as the arm of that couch left plenty of room on the side for me to stand....  I showed him and he flung himself over the arm of the couch with his ass held high... I pondered for a moment to take off the condom but I pulled back on that...I begin to go in and knowing full well at this point he could not feel a thing.. I started to fuck this boy and head deep in with zero regard for him... this was my show...   We are going at it and within a few mins of fucking him he stops and goes to start to get up staggering.... I am like, boy where are you going?  He begins to point down at the floor and low and behold there was his load ... ahhh  i fucked it out of him again without him touching himself.  Score!!!   I pull out of him and he is swaying and heading for the floor and I place him down on his ass to sit.
I grab the towel wipe up the cum and take same towel and make a pillow for us....  we cuddled it was lovely and I was hard as a rock as I had yet to cum... I also do this water thing where I drink like 3-4 glasses of water right before he comes over this makes me have a piss hard on as I cannot pee when my cock is that hard.  So it keeps me strong and hard and I love it.  I intertwine with him and he intertwines with me and it is really nice, quiet, peaceful.... I am still horny so I am rubbing his back placing small kisses on his face and he is not responding as I knew he would not but still I love to push that envelope....  He pulls me in tighter and we settle into a 15 min cuddle...He is trying to come down off the high as he has taken in so much poppers and spray along with that dumb pill.   So 15 mins later he starts to come to and he wants to explain the trip he has been on with all these drugs... He is trying to explain about something to do with Water.... So finally he gets up I suggest the bed and he says no he has to wake up.  He gets up and walks over to the kitchen area and walks in.... So let me explain how the kitchen works cause its important the layout...
It is a U shaped Kitchen which is wide open to the sitting area where the counter tops are in the U if your looking at the letter he goes to sit on the counter at the love left of the U so that where it meets in that angle he is parks his well fucked ass ontop of the counter... looking so dam hot this hunky straight dude sitting on the countertop in front of me trying to explain this water thing....  
He watches Anime and that is some cartoon based on Animals being human like but being Cartoons... I dont get it but I know in previous conversations he has talked about using as an outlet for Porn....   anyway he went to go see The lil Mermaid right before he got here and he felt that when I was fucking him over the arm of the couch he was the Mermaid and I was me but not me someone named Darrell   I fucked him and cam in him... (He kept saying to me prior that I had cummed, I kept correcting him) the cumming in him made him explode.....  This is the stuff you get from using the spray.... at one point when I sucked it in I remember standing on a street in the town I grew up in and my Dads old car parked a bit away.... so he would have these major delusional trips to funky and messed up like where did this come from.....  This has led him to me slapping him hard across the face, he suggested I do it to him that night in the throws of passion or tripping out....I knew he did not really like it and it triggered shit in him that was not nice... so I did it half heartedly...  That one time he asked me to smack him he kept saying do it harder so I would and I would kiss him also to ease him down off of it then I would go back again and smack him hard... he eventually stopped me, later he told me that he was kidnapped in a white pick up truck and beat up.... nothing sexual.
This stuff fucks ya up!  So there he is sitting ontop the countertop and he is telling me where he was going in his loopiness....  I feed him some bread and after awhile you can see he is coming down and he is looking at me naked and he begins to pull on his cock, I did not pay him any attention but I can clearly see him pulling on his cock and he wants me to see it... I am up close to him and I am rubbing his thighs with deep strokes and he is liking it as his dick begins to grow...  I just go down on him and says   "wow I cant believe you are doing that"   Light goes off in my head.... time to push the envelope....  after getting him hard I pull up from his cock and tell him now it is his turn to suck me off without any poppers... He gets that feared  look in his eyes but you can tell at this stage it is a forced reaction on his part to convince not only me but him that he could not possibly do anything without it.  He quickly gets up and starts to head to the bedroom... I am kinda pissed cause I wanted it in the kitchen.... I follow him in determined that this was going to happen and tell him to get down on his knees... he is reluctant and still has the deer in the headlights look on him.... I am letting him know by my attitude that this was gonna happen ... he is yelping about the poppers and if he could and I let him know that he was not getting any until he wrapped his mouth around my cock......  I reach for the poppers to ease his mind that he at least knew it was within reach...  I go to unscrew it he is looking at me and I take a hit and put the cap back on and he is like "what none for me"  I put it down reach for the back of his head and tell him to "suck my cock" and he looks at it and slowly opens his mouth and takes it in.   I made him suck me for awhile he gagged and spouted but I am sure my dick tasted like ass at this stage so.... he is looking to get fucked and I am still wanting to play so I am drawing it out and i am not looking for condoms for him...  he says to me "can you put it inside of me without a condom on"  he has that look in his eyes of fear and pleading.  i was getting the vibe right before that I was going to openly fuck him raw... he is moaning about it and I clearly tell him that I am putting my cock in his ass without it.. he says nothing and lays back for me to fuck him.....  I do and pull out and hose him down with my cock... he had already cummed just from my dick being in his ass.....   Afterwards we discussed me fucking him raw as he and the fiancee do not use them... she cannot bear children.....  He is 95% sure I am clean but 100 would let me take him how I want to.... Gotta find a form...   After I cam we layed on the bed and cuddled some more .... so nice...
He got up and got into a frantic as he had to meet the fiancee somewhere and took off... I cleaned up and sat in marvled bliss.... So when I went back into the kitchen after he left I could see where he had been sitting that there was the imprint of his crack on the countertop... It is now Wednesday and I have not cleaned that spot yet....
The rest of the weekend was good, hung out Saturday did Laundry and headed to my Sisters at 4 for dinner, came back here around 11
Next day was pure nothingness just the kinda day you have to steal it was nice and relishing in having fucked that cute boy
Sunday night the ex texted me and was asking how to pay the cable bill as they were calling...I did not text him back and waited till Mon morning at 7am, let him know how and  he texts me again how he paid the bill and it was $689.00   and could I help him out with the MOTHER FUCKING BILL!!  he did not say that I did the MF part....  I was still on a high and texted him back and explained that I had Apartment bills deposits first and last month furniture etc....  I was not paying that MOTHER FUCKING BILL!  So he texts me back (mind you we have not spoken since I left 23 days ago... )  so is this permanent?  I write him back "I guess so, how many times can you hear "get out of my house" till you know its time to go.
His response..." ok"   FUCKING OK!  Good God this asshole is so lame he is so "push me I am coming'
I aint pushing no more.
I went to the Shrink and I felt at times there was no feedback I was just having him listen to me and awkwardly answering me when I left great pauses... I was thinking to myself come on man would you diagnose me or something kinda like call me out on my shit.... nothing... Although when I would do the silent game he would begin to talk, so that is kind of how I would like it to be.  This is new so will take sometime.  He did give me good insight as I have been stressing out over going to get my stuff out of the house.  My Sister has been nagging at me to go and get my stuff and I have been reluctant as I did not want to go and get my stuff bring it back to here and move it again to my new place :-)  At the same time I was putting off a huge project that I know we be painful and lots of fucking work.  I figured it out that she just wants me to end my pain that I have been enduring about having to do this I have mentioned it to her.  Shrink said to ask that lady who owns the house to see if I could bring some stuff over before moving in....will see how that goes.  I got home today and got an email from the realtor that everything was a go and that I could call the lady she provided her phone number....  This realtor is good like her alot...in talking to her when I went to her office to sign the lease I commented on the Stove and how it was old and how did I approach the lady to get a new one... the Broker was there and she suggested I wait a few months and then bring it up.....I was okay with that...yet in todays email she told me that she told the broker that I made a comment about the stove and the other realtor came back and said there was discussion about the replacing the fridge, I was all for it!  So they said not to mention the stove till later but I will, hopefully it will filter to her via her realtor.
Sister wants to go shopping with me on Saturday like first thing in the morning and go out for dinner later and for me to sleep over... no no and no...I am scared to go shopping as I do not want to spend any money but I need shit, like Furniture, washer and dryer cable the whole nine yards and it is scary as I am as broke as broke could be...  I budgeted it out and I have 1700 to spend and that leaves me with nothing come the first of the month..Did I mention I need everything... Again my Mom said she would buy me everything so hopefully that will come true!!!  

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Let's bring on the Sex, when I first moved into the house in 99 he was off to Canada  and gone for 3 months which was just what I was looking for, new territory and a place to play that was private and in a controlled environment.  I met a good deal of stragglers, folks who were looking for a one night stand a little fun and someone to help them get off.  That was me, the guy who was going to get you off, while getting himself off at that same time.  What was it that made me want to venture outside to get something that I was missing at home.  Why did  I feel the need to go out and make myself available to those that were looking for the same exact thing that I needed. Cause I was and am a cheater and looking out for me sexually.  Sex with him was not great, minus the times he was high as as kite, those times he was like putty in my hand and would do just what I needed... They were far and few between, it was sporadic at best and something that I had a really tough time with.  His libido was in the toilet compared to me and I would aggravate myself and him on how little amount of sex we would have.  He was not intimate at all and while I was a tiger in the morning he did not like to be touched and if he did allow me to it would end up being me the aggressor and him just laying there.  It was rough as I would stupidly work myself into a tizzy in the morning, I learned to stop that.
So guys I met....
Had some great affairs with some young cute guys...  Had this one guy he was Hispanic, smart good looking on the tall side.   He was in a relationship and it was ending and he was on the hunt not for fucking but for a boyfriend he had ethics something I love to bust.
Met him on AOL right after the king left we talked for a long time online, I was and still am pretty good at that.  I lured him and played him and roped him in.  He came over one night and he was like a Cheshire cat and I really could not figure him out.  He was very good looking and I felt that he might have been disappointed in my looks.  Either way we went out for dinner in town.  I was so nervous that someone we knew would see us, we flirted at dinner and I went so far as to pay for dinner and ask him back to the house.
He was mine, lock stock and barrel and I fucked him that night over and over again I do not think we slept.
At one point I went downstairs to have a Cigarette and he followed a few minutes later.. I was sitting on the couch smoking in my bathrobe and he came down and gave him a really hot blow job while I smoked.  I thought that was so hot.  He was becoming very attached to me and we were actually "dating"  I knew my time was coming close and soon the King would be home so I as I always do. abandoned him.
During that period I met this hot Italian Construction guy.  Antonio great body all man dirty from labor drove a white pick up and was only interested in being a cocksucker.  The first time we met he came over after weeks of talking online.  He walked in and I was like "WHAT" this guy was hot Italian great body about 5'9 just oozed masculinity.  He was Married and lived close by.
So he comes in we go upstairs and I always remember he would take off his shoes, again he was this contractor so he was always covered in dusty dirty clothes.  We head upstairs and I begin to strip down as does he and lay on the bed... I go to kiss him and he is not interested and then I work over his body he was lean cut and so fucking sexy.... This was not what he wanted... what he wanted was to be used he wanted to be a cocksucker he was not interested in having sex with me. He wanted to kneel down and just be a cocksucker but it had to be with a condom on.  When I was going to cum I was to rip the condom off and blow all over his face.  Not easy or sexy getting sucked with a condom on but hey who was I to argue.  I do remember one time him coming over and he got now to the point where he would not even take his clothes off, he would just come in to suck cock with a condom on, he is kneeling in the bedroom work boots on dirty jeans and t shirt tanned muscular hot looking Italian.  I pull the condom off yank back his head by his hair and start to shoot and I would dump loads on him...  he would wipe it from his face and leave, this time as he is walking to the door I go to open it and look at him and he has this clump of Cum in his hair!  I never told him but I got a good kick out of that.  His and I's relationship is still going on.  It has evolved in many ways the last session me attempting to fuck him and sadly I shot my load while to attempting to and could not get hard.  He swallows my cum now allows me to touch him.  It came to be that I was not allowed to touch him and he would remain clothed when we were together, I pushed and pushed and pushed to now when he comes over the drill is, you strip naked and stripe me also.  I got him to begin swallowing my cum playing with his ass.  This guy is a Pervert and a sex addict and it has taken me sooo damn long to get him to this stage.  15 years as long as I have lived in that house....   We have talked so much online it is an odd friendship.  I use him he wants more from me then I am willing to give, not relationship wise but more people to serve.  I ain't into that I don't want competition if I am not enough for you when you are with me than it is time to find somebody else.  I am not a pimp that job is to big.... So I have pretended that I have this group of guys  who want to use him and be a cocksucker and piss slave and hostess and cleaner and server the list goes on.  So I bide my time saying lets meet and hope we get to talk to them but they are not real so he does not talk to them.  This frustrates him because he says he wants it but in the end he does not really want it.   I have set up imaginary meetings with people coming to the house to be serviced all planned and ready to go and when the time comes he is a no show... Each and every time he would not show up.  I saw him once drive by and he could not pull the trigger...  No one was at the house and no one was coming as I had made it up so he would come and I would get to fuck his throat.... he was damn good at sucking cock... I don't know if it was the way he would do it but it got so that it was overwhelming all my senses he would make me cum so fast it was all it was him sucking me off and leaving within 10 minutes....  I would attempt and am kinda there now the prolonged session.. I remember one time we went to a house he was building and we were upstairs in a large closet and I molested him full onslaught my hands all over that hot sexy body touching his cock making him hard and him allowing me.  Realize that his was a huge no no that I touch him but I was cocky he arranged the meet with the premise that I would call them and he could talk to them.  That was hot to feel his cock get hard in my hand knowing he liked it..  This was a problem for me as I felt he was not attracted to me and was using me (ha) for getting more guys who have NEVER materialized, yet he wants to suck me off and is willing to be fucked and pissed and spat on and eat out my ass and.... It is a full time job!
I just got him to send me a pic of his cock....   He is hot and we know each other better then most.
Here is the cinch er he does not know that I am Gay he thinks I am married....  One night at the Home Depot I see him and he sees me and I am with the King....  I LOVED IT, him not so much as the next time I saw him online he was really bothered by it I told him that the King was my Brother.. HA!  The things I do for my cock....
Another time I had been talking to this one guy who was shady at best and was from PA and had a buddy who lived the next town over and how he wanted to come over and hang with me and than go over to his buddies house.  I don't really think we hardly exchanged pictures.
He pulls up on a Motorcycle and walks in and is drop dead gorgeous but in a natural way, his body was lean rock hard with just the right amount of hair on it..  So damn sexy and I am like WOW...  He proceeds to be a complete and total bottom that I could use and abuse anyway I want and I had this guy doing everything and in the end got him to clean his Ass off my cock.  This guy was so hot so viral so manly it was amazing my cock stayed hard for hours.  We went at it for 2 hours so hot!
See these are good memories to me those are hot sexy and so taboo along with being fun!!
Needed that fun.... What I have always been good at is getting guys who were taboo, married bi, straight and seducing them and getting to fuck them and busting that cherry.  I did that to many guys over my lifetime and got them to like it.  Not sure what that is but being in tune with the other person is a great deal of work but if you find the right person who is willing I can turn that boy out in no time.
Lance.... 2 years ago the King decides to rent a house in PA some rural setting and bring his family and yadda yadda yadda for 2 fucking weeks... I am so not interested.... Plus it gave me play time.... Before he left we were fighting about something stupid and I did not really talk to him when he was gone.  I let him know that I would come at the tail end of the trip like the Thurs-sun which I did.
I go online one night and this guy sends me a message am I interested in jerking off together....   He opens his pics and I am like you are cute and no one else is knocking on my door....  So I invite him over and we do some Poppers it was like his first time doing this type of thing..... He is so handsome, actor but not currently, clean cut Colorado Mennonite looks... as that is who he is.  So innocent and so charming and handsome I get a yummy feeling when he is over.  The first night he comes in I am jonesing to touch this guy but I am also being respectful cause that is how you win someone over.  We sat in the living room I did not have any porn on and pulled our pants down and started to take hits off the poppers and look at this straight handsome 28 yr old engaged guy with a big fat dick and proceed to Jerk off with.  So I am looking at him and he is looking at me and we are both hard core staring at each others cocks.  I so wanted to reach out to his dick but I so wanted for him to reach out for my cock.  He had set the rules and this is what he was looking for and I was not looking for someone to freak out on me so I shot a load in 10 mins and he was gone after he shot.    The following day he sees me online and says "hey, can we get together"  I came back with ya it was fun but I am looking for a little more then just jerking off.....   His reply was "okay lets see where we do"  so he was hooked and now I had to sink him.
He comes in I feed him some shots of Vodka we have the poppers and I have the attitude that this guy is going to submit.
This was so new to him he had never before gone this far with a guy, I was scared but so wanting it.  Yet cause I am such a nice guy I did not want to be harsh.... He wanted it, this was his goal he wanted someone to show him who he is.  An amazing bottom.....  I turned this boy out, I made him into a true cocksucker.
We are laying side by side and looking at each others cock and me afraid to tell him to suck my cock.  So I go for his and attempt to get it hard.  Did not take me long, some hits of poppers along with several shots of Vodka he was putty in my hands.....  While I was down servicing his cock I began to open up his ass with saliva and fingers and like a butterfly it spreads its wings.