Well here it is a whole year has passed and not much has changed in my life.... I am a bit bummed today as the kid that I have been fucking dumped me for the 4th time.
I am not sure why but he has some issues as far as identifying who he is but suffice to say it has really put a damper on my day. A good deal has happened since I last checked in here.
Took a trip to Ireland probably one of my best yet, this would most likely mark my 27th time back to Ireland I have been going since 1970 and while it has its up and downs I truly treasure being with my family and all that they bring to me. We rented a beautiful house that was built about 6 years ago and was truly a gracious if not grand home. We arrived on a Friday to some nice weather beating what I had left behind, this Winter has truly been harsh not so much the snow but the cold temps.
Rented two cars as there was 7 of us traveling on this trip. Did the usual drive down and were met with cousins after cousins who all welcomed us so warmly. To arrive at the most lovely house I have ever rented, equipped to the 9s and the comfort was beyond belief.
The nice part I felt about this trip was that I would make a day trip plan and all would follow and it would just be a great day followed by another great day... Sure I had my struggles in the beginning as it is not easy going from being alone to being surrounded by a gang... I pulled in my horns and went on to really have fun... We had a celebration for an Aunt and we hosted 55 people at the house for a Cousins gathering on both my Mom and Dads side.
Each day was great and I am greatful for all of those people in my life and how gracious and welcoming each and everyone of them were to me.
Work has changed as I am now back in my office which is something I really needed to do. I felt lost and isolated and with no direction being in constant sales and spent most of my time holed up in my apartment online scouting. Now I am back to my Manager role and while it has its ups and downs it is my place and my office.
I bought a new lap top got a new Iphone and a few trinkets for the house to make me feel good.
I got a review a work which was "exceeds expectations" How on God's green earth did I get that seriously!!! I did NOTHING last year and I mean NOTHING and got the highest grade you could get. Amazing my boss truly amazing.
Either way it will give my income a boost and has helped to make me feel somewhat better about myself.
I am bored so bored with what I am doing it is the same routine day in and day out.
Wake go online look at porn go to work answer the phone fill some orders aggravate people around me go home and drink till I fall asleep, I guess I am not alone in doing these things but still I have to stop it is not good for me.
So here it is he day before my Birthday my phone does not ring and I have no one to be with.
Yesterday Sunday was a good day, I awoke got online showered went back online and was damn horny and wanted to get laid... That Fbuddy that I have been on and off with since around 5 months texted me asking if I wanted to get together "perfection"
He arrived at around 5 and stayed till after 7 where we fucked and fucked and fucked it was so damn good and all bare and the boy is just so hot to fuck......He has these Anal orgasm's when I go to fuck him, I guess I am that good or he is in total sensory overload. Either ways they are wild, he goes and starts screaming that he is cumming and no cum comes out his face gets all contorted and he tenses up and gets confused and intense like painfully intense holding on to me till it hurts.
This last time we are fucking and he needs me to say that he is the best I have ever had... I hate that so much but this time I told him he was, dont like doing that at all...
Our normal routine and I should mention this as this is why he dumped me for the 4th time is he comes over sits down I pour him a Cocktail and I have already left on the Cocktail table in the living room a fully loaded bowl of Pot and a lighter I bring him the drink an he drinks it fast and takes several large hits off the Pipe. Now realize that it was he who requests this, I dont like to share so it was not mine. See one of the first times he came over he said, "I smell smoke" Granted I do smoke but do not want him to know (Cigs) but he insisted so I blamed it on the Landlady. He bought it but it tested the water on weed and low and behold he wanted some, so I accommodated and it became the norm each and every time he came over. Which is fine as it relaxed him and turned him into this powerhouse bottom boy.
In fact he came over the day of my Xmas eve party that I was having that night we smoked a bit fucked our brains out and when my first guest arrived they commented how the place reeked of it.
I really dont like smoking in the house as it reeks and I have an old lady who lives upstairs who owns the place and I would rather not subject her to that. It is not nice. Not to mention it could get me evicted. That being said yesterday was just the same as always but perhaps I pushed it to far and I think I may have. See he gets the guilts about sex and as is the usual I fill up on water so as not to cum to fast and maintain an amazing hard on. So I knew I was not going to cum anytime soon and wanted to make this about him. I sucked him off a good long time till the point he pulled out of my mouth and went to be what he is a true bottom
So I am fucking him for over an hour and he is having these amazing anal orgasm's and finally I say to him I am going to keep on fucking you till you cum... He never cums when I am inside him this time I wanted to treat him to that as he did not cum last time we were together. So I fucked the cum out of him, took awhile but he shot and right after it he pulled out and left. He said it was bothering him that he felt like it had to pee, I knew it was the guilt and I was fine with it, I shot when he went into the shower. I was so played out after he left I ordered Chinese and slept.
The next day today, I was on cloud nine in a great mood and felt wonderful, rare for me.
At about 2 in the afternoon I text him to see how he is feeling... he was fine and said it was the best night ever.
Followed by how he is deleting my number and do not ever expect to hear from him again. PUNCH!
Fuck him and his constant immaturity.. I replied back with WTF and why??/
His reply was the Pot made him lazy and that is not who he is REALLY???
I left it at that I am sure he will be back at sometime but still I was really liking it so much, it as so nice to see a text from him and to know I was wanted by someone... How sad is that for me, for I really was just a cock to him someone to get him off but he wanted me and he could have anyone but he selected me... UGH!
Either way it hurts to be left like that I know it is something more but I really dont want to know to be honest dont want it to be hurtful. I now have to go out and look for something which I hate!
I saw the other guy Eric the day after I returned from Ireland and that did not go so well either.
He texted me while I was away and let him know that I will be home in 10 days so I text him no response... day later he texts me back and invites me to his place. Now this is a first as he was living with someone but now he left her and has taken up with another chick. Yet he has his own place a Garden apartment and he has it done very Scandanavian, white couches sleek entertainment center etc. So it is early like 10am and I arrive and he has been drinking alot so he takes his roofie I whip out the poppers and it just goes down hill he is too high to out of it to tired and I cum quickly which I always do with him and he cannot comfortably get my cock into him without it being painful.
Sadly I left he fell asleep and I got the ickly feeling that it would be our last as he always says that.
So hear I sit alone and approaching another birthday with nothing to show for it.
I hope that his year brings me some happiness and the ability to get out there and meet new people as I am living this existence which only brings bad things and thoughts to mind.
I will be here now for a year next week and I am okay with it as I cannot seem to save any money at all but am hoping this June with the end of my Car payment I will be able to buckle down.
Not in a good place today blogger but wanted to say hi...
